Tired and in a bad mood. So many things breaking that its almost comical. My SAD light just detached from its stand and fell over. A bar of chocolate fell out of a cupboard with a bang onto the work tops. It even managed to open the cupboard door despite its meager weight. Yes, its personal. And thats why im angry. That thing is here again to harass me and drive me to distraction.

Garbage - Milk

Subdued and brooding is Autumn also. In a more simple time we easily assumed what we needed to make us complete, and thought not much further about anything else. The growing darkness compounds our desires and the short days warp reality, suddenly making dreams seem possible.  Combine these two states and you have time of transmission.

Enjoy...

 My daughter cant sleep and now I cant. So here I am. Is it a full moon ? Feels like it. Last night I had the sweetest dream about something from my past. It was twisted into another scene that made me fill with joy. Can a past experience live on in your mind and exist only there, and no where else ?

I know from bitter experience how cruel the mind can be to the body, but sometimes just sometimes it will by the way of dreams, throw you a nugget of the good stuff - no questions asked. Normally we are thrown distressing messy meaningless dreams, and sometimes the mind knows what we really desire and throws us a ball of pure melancholy joy. 

I this respect I do feel separate from my medical brain.

Is this the soul ?

Londonbeat - I've Been Thinking About You (Video)

Well its suddenly that time of year again. I cant really explain why, but this song really reminds me of October, and that change of atmosphere kicking in.  So with a hazy half moon and a bowl of Ambrosia rice pudding here we go...